I thought it would be lovely,,,

My day started with seeing this beauty,,,



I thought that maybe that’s pretty good start,,,

After all, what there’s to be unhappy about, I had a lovely chat with my almost-fiance last night, then another long happy phone conversation with my sister and my best friend about the preparation for my upcoming engagement party,,,

So I thought today would be a lovely day

I had no idea how wrong I could be

By 9AM this morning, my mood started to falter

He (my almost-fiance) had not made his morning routine (no phone call, no message, nothing whatsoever) so I sent him a message, thinking that maybe he just a little busy than usual and need some reminder

I waited for his reply, nothing came

Then I realized, this is one of his “silent treatment”, but I just had no idea what prompted this

Then I had a duty call that obligate me to take a round in the plantation

So, with a very heavy heart and bad mood, I started to walk out of my house

Suddenly I can sensed that today is different from any other day

The air felt warmer and fresh

The sun shine warmly and bright

I walked to the spot that I needed to inspect

Then I saw this




Today’s harvest day,,,

All those plantation workers were busily harvesting the carrots from the ground

Somehow I can feel their happiness of doing things that they like

Saw their move from afar, like understanding a body language song

“Hey! Cheer up! Today is harvest day! What there’s to be unhappy about? Allah is still giving us this opportunity to gain something valuable from our land! What there’s to be unhappy about?”

The closer I get to them, I could hear their happy chatter to each other

Then I met this woman I supposed to chat with, when I talked to her, I can hear the bubbly happiness she contain inside her heart and the happiness contagiously moved to me too,,,

The chat’s over, time to go back to my little office

On my way back

I saw the beauty of my land,,,

I looked up and see this



And I thought,,, “What there’s to be unhappy about?”


the highland,15 June 2010
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Cinta Sederhana

Untuk Dia, yang selalu menyampaikan cintaNya
dalam hal-hal sederhana yang Dia berikan padaku

dalam udara yang diizinkannya untuk kuhirup
dalam hangatnya sinar matahari yang menghangatkan hari-hariku
dilambaian rumput dan pohon yang kutemui
di arak-arakan awan yang memenuhi langit
di rintik-rintik hujan yang menyegarkan
dalam selimut kabut yang menyejukkan

dalam senyum ramah seorang teman
dalam uluran tangan seorang saudara
dalam bait kata-kata nasihat dan semangat orang tua
dalam pelukan hangat ibuku
dalam ketenangan hati yang Dia berikan padaku ketika kegundahan melanda

maka nikmatNya yang mana lagi yang mau aku dustakan?

Maka biarlah hati ini selalu merindukanMu
dalam sudah maupun senangku

karena hanya dengan mengingat Mu, ya Allah, hati ini menjadi tenang


The Highlang 05 May 2010
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Karena

Karena Allah ku yang telah perintahkan,,,

sesakit apapun
semarah apapun

istighfar
bersabar

jangan biarkan amarah menguasai
jangan balas menyakiti

maka atas seluruh kepatuhanku kepada Allah ku

aku akan tetap tersenyum padamu
tetap berbuat baik padamu

karena aku yakin Dia akan gantikan setiap airmata yang kuteteskan hari ini
dengan sejuta senyuman dan bahagia esok



the highland, 23 May 2010
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Bagiku,,,

“Dengan nama Allah Yang Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang”

Pengertian berada dalam jama’ah bagiku
bukan tentang ekslusivisme mengatakan aku A dan engkau B
bukan pula tentang memilih partai A B C atau D

Pengertian jama’ah bagiku adalah sebuah keindahan persaudaraan tulus
yang puncaknya adalah
dihari ketika saudara tidak lagi mengenal saudaranya
teman-teman akrab saling bermusuhan (Q.S 43:67)
kami akan berdekatan,
seperti ada sebuah medan magnet yang akan mendekatkan kami
walau tanpa kami sadari
karena hati kami terikat karena Allah
dan dengan harapan bahwa pada hari itu wajah-wajah kami bercahaya (Q.S 57:12)

Tarbiyah bagiku bukan pembelajaran teori tentang agamaku
Tarbiyah bagiku adalah pembelajaran tentang bagaimana merealisasikan cinta
cintaku pada Rabb ku
dan cintaku pada saudaraku

Sekufu buatku bukan tentang berada di suatu organisasi yang sama
Bukan pula tentang “level-level” semu
Sekufu buatku adalah pemikiran yang sama
Bahwa hidup bersama bukan hanya tentang bahagia tapi juga tentang usaha

Sekufu adalah kesadaran bahwa, ya, hari-hari ku dengannya akan kami isi dengan cinta pada satu sama lain
tapi di hari yang sama juga aku dan dia akan menundukkan kepala kami bersama
tanda cinta kami kepadaNya yang telah berkenan memberikan cinta itu dalam hati kami
sehingga pada hari yang telah dijanjikan oleh Rabb ku itu datang
dan kami diperkenankan untuk memasuki firdausNya
aku akan punya kesempatan untuk merajut cinta itu lagi,,,, bersama



The highland, 24 May 2010 (04:31 AM)
Written by me

Unconditional Love

In a family gathering, an old loving couple was surrounded by their grandchildren,,,

"please, tell us the secret of how you both can love each other and be together for such a loooong time?"

the couple smiled and looked at each other eyes deeply,,,

"i'll let your granny answer that question" said grandpa while still smiling and looking at his wife,,,

Granny started her story "long time ago, in our third year of marriage, things are harder than usual, and i used to complaint and get angry at your grandpa for many different reasons,,,"

"then, one night your grandpa suggested that both of us need to cool down and try to solved the matters,,, he requested that we both sleep in different room for the night,,, and write down all the things that we dislike from each other. So,,, we did. The next morning,,, we sat in our beautiful backyard and i gave him my list, it was such a long list, he looked at it, smiled, then gave me back the list and asked me to read it, so i did. Then it was your grandpa's turn,,,"said granny. She gazed at her husband lovingly,,,

Grandpa smiled and then he continued the story,,, “I take the list that already made the night before from my pocket, I gave it your granny,,, she starred at it, then said ‘it’s blank,,,’ I smiled at her and said ‘exactly,,, there is nothing about you that I dislike. I love you just the way you are, if you changed one little bit of yourself then she wouldn’t be you, the woman I love and the woman I marry.'

“Then I kissed her forehead just like this”, said grandpa while kissing granny’s forehead, “and she was triying to wipe all the tears that profusely come out from her eyes just like the way she do it now” said grandpa smilingly.

oooowwhhh,,, sooo sweet,,,,

White Wedding

I dreamed about a wedding,,,

where everything was in white,,,

the bride's gown, the groom's tuxedo and the dress of all the guess,,,

the party was held in a beautiful garden,,,

the contrast between the white and the green was soften by the cheerfull colour of flowers,,,

everyone seemed enjoying themselves,,, laughing,,, making small talk with each other,,,

i can feel the happiness that seemed to fill the air,,,

and it fill my eyes with tears,,,

very poignant moment,,,

then i woke up,,,

and i can feel that my pillow is wet,,,

highland, 18 May 2010
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Lantunan Doa

kulantunkan doa ini

bersama dengan sunyinya malam
dalam helaan berat nafasku
bersama lekuk tubuhku dalam sujud padaMu
seiring panjang pendek harkat doaku

Tuhanku,,,
tadinya aku hanya ingin sempurnakan separuh dienku
hanya ingin menjalankan tugasku
alasan kenapa aku ada didunia ini
menjadi pendamping untuk seseorang
dan menjadi ibu untuk anak-anaknya

tapi jika ternyata ketentuanMu lain
jika dia bukan yg terbaik untukku
bukan terbaik untuk agamaku
bukan terbaik untuk masa depanku di dunia dan di akhirat

maka,,,
bawalah dia pergi
jauh sejauh jauhnya dariku
dan buatlah hatiku ridha akan setiap ketetapanMu

sesungguhnya semua ini mudah bagiMu, wahai Sang Pembolakbalik Hati Yang Maha Mengetahui seluruh rahasia masa depanku,,,

tunjukan jalanku, sesungguhnya hanya padaMu aku kembali,,,

highland, 18 May 2010
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