I guess,,,

this is the ultimate test of my faith,,,

to be or not to be
to stay or to leave

he seemed like the best

but somewhere in my heart the seed of doubt had grown to be a little strong plant

dear Allah, can you lend me your power

to say "no" when the time has come

and to overcome all the unpleasant feeling that might come afterward,,,

to hurt someone who put high hope on you is never been easy

but i want so much more,,,

not physically or materiality ofcourse,,,

but more spiritually,,,

highland, 09 May 2010
written by me